It's almost 2:00 am. Last time i checked the clock, it was only 12 am.

2 hours of experimenting (no, not in the chemistry lab sort of thing... something else..). Talk about unproductivity. But then again, i realized certain things.

These past 3 weeks, I had been really confused about myself and what I feel.

But now I guess everything's clear. I'm not who I think I am. Thank goodness..

I went to Fr. Ben's and Mr. Rene San Andres' leadership forum. I learned a lot. And in a sense, I was affirmed after the past doubts I have about my leadership and maturity about certain things.

Two reports POS 100 and Ch136. Both ok... Both crammed. But I couldn't have crammed any better. Best cramming experience ever.

Overall, I'm quite speechless of what's been happening in my life at the moment.
Too much mixed emotions. Too much complications. Too many misinterpretations.


---- I love being vague and random. I missed this.

Labels: Daily Digest

I whispered @2:09:00 AM

Mageemo lang ako. ngayon lang, pagbigyan niyo na ako.

WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!

YOU CALL YOURSELVES MY FRIENDS?!

WHATEVER.

I'll do this, alone.

ARRRRGH.

hai.

I whispered @2:45:00 PM

while browsing through my planner, my multiply contacts, and friendster friends list, I suddenly realized something...


There were A LOT of friends whom I forgot to greet last 2008! of course, it wouldn't take much of a genius to figure that every year my friends would celebrate their birthdays. And sometime during the year, there would be one day that I'd be greeting them a happy birthday! But there were very few moments those words came out of my mouth, or my pen, or my cellphone.

I suddenly felt I've grown apart from a lot of people. Those that I usually talked to when I was in highschool, I absolutely have no idea what's been going on with their lives.

These are moments when I begin checking on my priorities.

It's been more than a year since I've seen any of my high school friends. So what happened with keeping in touch and friends forever? THEY were keeping in touch, while I was busy creating another world.

And that was MY mistake.

I hope more than a year of not talking didn't change much of anything. (asa pa ako.)

Hai, I miss people.

and I hope me saying BELATED HAPPY TO ALL OF YOU isn't too late.

I whispered @7:08:00 AM

It's just a few hours before 2009.

Just a few moments left before i say goodbye to this one heck of a year. I don't want to reminisce. Whatever happened this year put me to where I am right now, whether it be downright tragic or exaggeratingly happy.

I've learned a lot, and I'm hoping to learn more.

I'm just thankful to have had experienced ALL OF IT.

As for new year's resolutions? I guess I'd be lying if I say I don't have any. I have a LOT. But I'd rather keep that to myself, for now.


Although there is one thing I would really want to happen this 2009,

and that is,


to live like I have never lived before.



Too much?

Nah, I don't think so...


That's what were struggling to do every day...



A happy and prosperous 2009 to everyone!

Cheers!

I whispered @3:44:00 PM

Because I got a lot of things to do, and I got bored doing them. haha.


Got this from Troy and Meryl.

Where did you begin 2008?
Bel-air drive, outside our house in Laguna.

What was your status by Valentine's day of 2008?
Single and very very happy.

Did you have to go to the hospital?
i was sent to the hospital for asthma attacks, a tension strain on my neck, and a biopsy surgery.
SO YES. I had to go to the hospital.

Did you have any encounters with the police?
none.

What did you purchase over $500?
i don't have that much money.

Did you know anybody who got married?
other than celebrities, no one close to me or my family.

Did you know anybody who passed away?
no relatives, but a lot of close family friends. especially during the months of October and November.

What sporting events did you attend?
UAAP. the best was the championship game of Ateneo - La Salle.

What concerts/shows did you go to?
gigs here and there, but no major concert

Where do you live now?
New house in Laguna. Still in Laguna Bel-air, but in a different Phase.

Describe your birthday.
Spent the whole day at our house. It was surprising that classes were suspended. Just with family, my tita and her children from the states.

What's the one thing you thought you would never do but did?
quit the ateneo judo team. :(

Any new additions to your family?
hm, none that I know of. haha.

What was your best month?
December! :)

Who was your best drinking buddy?
buddies in my case: Lean Mari M. Cauilan, ACheS EB (lahat sila! i won't name names. hahaha! mga laklakero!), Maria Sophia de la Paz, Kristine Haizell S. Anore (although not much itong si Haiz this year.)

Made new friends?
Yes yes yes! maraming maraming marami!

Any regrets?
A lot of regrets this year. Don't know where to start. (or where to end.)

What do you want to change in 2009?
My attitude and views toward life. I was very stubborn this year. I was highly pessimistic. I always felt that life was unfair towards me. Especially with all the misfortunes that I had this year. It was hard to have a positive view point about life. Maybe by changing this, things wouldn't seem so bad after all. According to my friend (who got it from some other person) "you carry your own weather".

Overall, how would you rate this year?
6. It's pretty obvious why.

Have any life changes in 2008?
too many to mention. the only constant thing in life is change.

Get a new job?
For 2009? am still thinking about it.

How old did you turn this year?
pretty old.

Did anything embarrassing?
nothing major. although i have a lot of embarrasing moments with my friends and family.

Get married or divorced?
I wish.

Be honest - did you watch American Idol?
via you tube. no television in our dormitory.

Start a new hobby?
nope. But I lost a lot of hobbies. unless you consider Orgs and School as hobbies, then yes!

Are you happy to see 2008 go?
YES! bye.

Drank Starbucks in 2008?
yes! and the most memorable was when I drank with a. soph, we chatted for hours! (dahil hindi kami natuloy sa drews sa dami ng tao! hahaha.)

Been naughty or nice?
I choose or. haha.

What are you wishing for in 2009?
inner peace. (since world peace doesn't seem possible at the moment. haha)

I whispered @3:00:00 PM

I thought vampire stories were scary. This was even scarier.

I remembered when me and my roommate were laughing about making a tagalog version of Twilight. The ideas were just waltzing in our heads. We were trying to figure out who the perfect Edward Cullen and Bella Swan would be. The names Richard Gutierrez, Angel Locsin, Denise Trillo, Katrina Halili, Piolo Pascual popped out of our conversation every once in a while. We were hysterical. We thought it was funny. But when I saw this, nope, not funny at all:




what the hell is wrong with you people!?!? How can you even think about...arrrgh!?!? (sorry, speechless due to utter disbelief!) The whole world is going to react to this. Although ABS-CBN was licensed and has legally bought the production of this film, I still can't believe they pushed through with this idea. Why do Filipinos love to have their own version of something. Can't we just be original every once in a while?

So much for me and my roommates laughing fantasies. It suddenly became frightening.

Labels: twilight, versions

I whispered @6:49:00 PM

first time kong mangatog dahil sa sobrang takot.

nanginginig ang aking buong katawan...

seryoso.

narealize ko...

ang hina ko na.

kasisimula pa lang ng sem, may doubts na ako sa sarili ko. kinakain ako ng mga negative thoughts ngayon.

kailangan kong maging matapang.

kailangan ko ng tulong.

kailangan.

I whispered @2:51:00 PM