So this is what being unemployed feels like. I've only just graduated last Saturday March 26, 2011. I'm glad, the past couple of days came by so fast. Just to break it all down...
March 10 - 18
Silent retreat at the Mirador Jesuit Villas in Baguio City. 8 days of not talking and yet saying everything there is to say to yourself and to your God. It was one of the most challenging experiences of my life. It's not because i'm uncomfortable with the silence. Unexpectedly, i'm very attuned with it. The more difficult part was the confronting of oneself, and the pushing away of all anxieties and insecurities. Never in my whole entire life that I have felt so loved and ironically this was the only time that I was ever really alone. Jeremiah 29:11 and Psalm 139 with sum it all up. :)
March 19
Scholars-Benefactors get-together, and overnight at my house. Good food and good company! This was the day I was informed that I am now an AASA Execom. That was surprising. I'm torn with up to what extent should I be active. But then again, I guess it would be one way for me to give back. :) It was also a bonding evening with my COA barkada. SG-KL team. It's true what Bob said that evening that these people might just be one of my sure friends for life. :)
March 20
ADMU Bad-ass pictorial, Bukas Palad concert, EB food binge. Ateneo is really beautiful when it's quiet. So I guess students make it a little less beautiful. HAHA. I think most of our shots were illegal. Good thing the guards didn't see us. Bukas Palad as usual was awesome. I always get teary-eyed whenever I get to watch them perform. Got to see the EB, too bad Ara and Ken were not there. We ate at Gloria Maris shabu-shabu and went to Moksha as I got acquainted with something-Tiger (i really should remember the name of that drink, I finally met my match, one glass and I was tipsy, oh that's why I don't remember. haha). I'm sure i'll miss this passionate batch of leaders. I've learned so much from them. :)
March 21
Graduation practice, Banapple dinner, and block symposium. Grad practice was the usual. But it was less stressful than I expected. Banapple dinner with Joy was spontaneous as we got to talk about a lot of things about the future and well issues in life. She's been a huge blessing in my life. Don't know what I'd do without her in it. :) Block symposium was really fun. It was the first time I saw Henson drink. :))) A lot of funny stories. It was really nice to catch up. I don't regret staying with this block. I've been lucky to meet the most wonderful and simple people I know. :)
March 23
Heart to heart at the Gesu and Blue Roast
I feel lucky to have met and grown close to Ate Rica. :) I stand by the fact that she truly is one of the kindest blessing I've been given. I also gave my blue rose to Leo and finally I was able to tell him about my silly puppy love with him. Glad that's finally over. I still don't understand why people still need blue roses for them to tell someone you like them. Why not let things be spontaneous, or let it be that expressing yourself be normal and not be catalyzed by some kind of symbol.
March 26
GRADUATION! FINALLY :) I offer it to my family who gave their unwavering support for the whole 21 years of my life and my 5 years in the Ateneo. :) I will give back out of love. :)
So after graduating, here I am, making up for all the lost time of rest and sharing bonds with important people in my life. My only problem is, I can't take the fact that I am still jobless whilst I spend so much on dinners and gimmicks. Every single morning is uncertain. All I can do is surrender it all to Him.
