only two weeks left. two weeks of hell. i can feel the pressure piling up, with all the online journals that ive been reading, which coincidentally, all have a common theme. everybody's struggling. most of my friends are complaining about their hell weeks (or maybe just trying to get by them, coz complaining cant really do anything), and most of my teammates are anxious about the UAAP. i cant say i dont feel the same way.
im dead nervous about the upcoming UAAP. just a few days left, with only 4 training days. everything's going to be even harder. ive come this far. there's no turning back.
requirements are beginning to pile up. i have two weeks to change the path of a whole semester, to make it turn in another direction, a more successful one that is.
emotions are, and will be, pouring. but i need to focus. i cant let the sadness creep into me. i cant let fear overcome myself.
sigh.
enough about depression. enough about darkness. enought about drama.
time to move on. time to accept reality.
i cant falter. not now.
Monday, September 24, 2007
Sunday, September 16, 2007
i need answers.
hai.
how do you handle depression?
how do you stop being a pessimist?
how do you overcome loneliness?
how do you fight your fears?
how do you enjoy life?
how do you not lose friends?
how do you discover yourself?
how do you forget the past?
how do you stay in the present?
how do you ready yourself for the future?
how do you stay faithful?
how do you stay alive?
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ang daming tanong.
anong sagot?
how do you handle depression?
how do you stop being a pessimist?
how do you overcome loneliness?
how do you fight your fears?
how do you enjoy life?
how do you not lose friends?
how do you discover yourself?
how do you forget the past?
how do you stay in the present?
how do you ready yourself for the future?
how do you stay faithful?
how do you stay alive?
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ang daming tanong.
anong sagot?
Sunday, September 09, 2007
mirrored.
another set of rants after a loooong break from the fifth estate.
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we all have our own sets of priorities. we all have our own worries and concerns in life. its funny how people would stress themselves out on some things that seem not so important to me, but astonishingly, are matters of life and death to them. looking at how the human mind works, im amazed at how complicatedly diverse one individual's mind is compared to other equally intelligent minds (how can one say that one mind is equally intelligent with another?.. haha. anlabo.). im not humoring other people's grievances, its more of a realization for my part.
my closest friend has been ranting all out about global warming, and im ashamed to say that i have been really insensitive to give her seethes the slightest of interest. ive always busied myself with the things that i deemed to be in favor of my own interests. but ive realized that i have been so selfish. not only did i neglect the society's need for clean and breathable air, not to mention the polar bears, i have also been insensitive to my friend. i confess, at first i felt that maybe it was a little bit dense, but then after much pondering, i finally came into my senses. my friend confiding me her thoughts, whether it be about the strangest and most non-sensible thing on the planet, it still proved a lot on how she trusted me even with her wackiest and most unbelievable thoughts. its not that im reading too much between the lines of her true intentions, but bottom line is, im supposed to support her. hey girl, if ever you're reading this, im sorry. i listen, i always do. especially now. i know its been hard. the earth will make it. (for your global warming issues), but more importantly, YOU 'll make it (for all other reasons too. :D)hey, im here. ayt?).
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Wired signals could be just a drag. sometimes you get the wrong messages, or sometimes, you just dont get the message at all. i hate wired signals, whether it be coming from telecommunication networks, or people's own line of networking and interaction (especially coming from the opposite sex.).
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psychologists say that dreams are caused by your subconscious, meaning thoughts, people, things, events that have or you percieve will have an impact to you. it could range from something you fear and hate most, or something you crave and want most.
thing is, i dreamt of YOU last night. i dreamt of us being so close to each other, that it felt too real, i didnt want to open my eyes. but i woke up. i found my mind drifting off that night, wondering what it all meant. there would always be a thin (or may be thick ?) line between a dream and the reality. i just hope i realize where im at soon. or maybe ive realized it, but im too afraid to admit it. (ok so now im confused.tsk.)
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we all have our own sets of priorities. we all have our own worries and concerns in life. its funny how people would stress themselves out on some things that seem not so important to me, but astonishingly, are matters of life and death to them. looking at how the human mind works, im amazed at how complicatedly diverse one individual's mind is compared to other equally intelligent minds (how can one say that one mind is equally intelligent with another?.. haha. anlabo.). im not humoring other people's grievances, its more of a realization for my part.
my closest friend has been ranting all out about global warming, and im ashamed to say that i have been really insensitive to give her seethes the slightest of interest. ive always busied myself with the things that i deemed to be in favor of my own interests. but ive realized that i have been so selfish. not only did i neglect the society's need for clean and breathable air, not to mention the polar bears, i have also been insensitive to my friend. i confess, at first i felt that maybe it was a little bit dense, but then after much pondering, i finally came into my senses. my friend confiding me her thoughts, whether it be about the strangest and most non-sensible thing on the planet, it still proved a lot on how she trusted me even with her wackiest and most unbelievable thoughts. its not that im reading too much between the lines of her true intentions, but bottom line is, im supposed to support her. hey girl, if ever you're reading this, im sorry. i listen, i always do. especially now. i know its been hard. the earth will make it. (for your global warming issues), but more importantly, YOU 'll make it (for all other reasons too. :D)hey, im here. ayt?).
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Wired signals could be just a drag. sometimes you get the wrong messages, or sometimes, you just dont get the message at all. i hate wired signals, whether it be coming from telecommunication networks, or people's own line of networking and interaction (especially coming from the opposite sex.).
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psychologists say that dreams are caused by your subconscious, meaning thoughts, people, things, events that have or you percieve will have an impact to you. it could range from something you fear and hate most, or something you crave and want most.
thing is, i dreamt of YOU last night. i dreamt of us being so close to each other, that it felt too real, i didnt want to open my eyes. but i woke up. i found my mind drifting off that night, wondering what it all meant. there would always be a thin (or may be thick ?) line between a dream and the reality. i just hope i realize where im at soon. or maybe ive realized it, but im too afraid to admit it. (ok so now im confused.tsk.)
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