just NORMAL.

alright. finally the blogger dashboard. ive been having a hard time accessing the net for the past couple of days. budget problems i guess? or maybe time management? or just the plain old sluggish syndrome.

so anyway.

what have i been up to lately?

well, nothing really. everything is just NORMAL.

haha.

id say its NORMAL that a friend asks me out for lunch at one very unexpected time.

yep, that is just NORMAL.

id say its NORMAL that i only get 4-5 hours of sleep a day over the past couple of weeks. to think that its only the second week of classes.

yep, that is just NORMAL.

id say its NORMAL that i feel so distant from my family ever since the start of the summer classes. its been so long since i felt that i was still a part of the family.

yep, that is just NORMAL.

id say its NORMAL that i close myself (my emotions, my transparency, my trust) from my friends. i cant seem to muster the courage to open up to the ones that i consider to be open to.

yep, that is just NORMAL.

id say its NORMAL that i cry almost every night and i find myself looking for a hug, but then i find no one.

yep, that is just NORMAL.

id say its NORMAL that i find myself inside the university chapel staring into blank space, asking the higher being what the HELL am I supposed to do in this world, and finding myself with no answer at all.

yep, that is just NORMAL.

id say its NORMAL that i see myself alone in the presence of a crowd, and i see only blurred faces, apparitions of someone abstract.

yep, that is just NORMAL.

so there.

everything's just NORMAL.